approaching the marcelo fernan bridge and i was inside the van with wondering thoughts... as i was staring at cebu city with the many ports on both sides, squatters area on the other end of the bridge, the many buildings that i ignore and that palatial looking casino and behind it is the building that i always look for every time i pass the bridge.. there it was.. the gleaming gold statue atop a sacred building and the mountains as the background.. i can't help but think of my life.. im 24 years old and have a life ahead of me.. as i recounted the past i realized i have been staying on the right track. sure every now and then i have a few mishaps but i always get back on track. so far i have done the things im supposed to do. all throughout my life i have been trying to become a good citizen, i finished high school and already got a bachelor's degree at some university. got a job at a medical facility.. and i said to myself "now what?" now its time to live life to the fullest.. but how am i gonna do that?
i am currently working on the requirements for my immigration plans. plans and the future.. i pondered on those two words.. i am someone who has a lot of dreams and plans and i work on those plans to make those dreams come true.. but as i go deeper to those thoughts i realized that all those dreams and plans are going to be put on hold unless... unless... i have a partner.. weird as it may sound but i needed that to start my life. people have different priorities in life.. people my age (outside the church) are usually not thinking about those kind of things. they don't want to think of those things until they're like 30 or something.. or when their careers are at its peak.. im sure they have their reasons but i have been taught and raised differently thus i think like this.. all those plans are good for nothing if i don't have that first. i mean i can't start my life without that.. not that im not living it its just incomplete..
i can live in a different country and do all the things i ever wanted to do.. but that wouldn't change anything. i would still think the same. i don't know if its just me being histrionic or if this is what im really thinking.. maybe both.. it is slowly becoming a dilemma.. you might think im brainwashed or something.. not really.. i have a perfect knowledge of most things.. not everything but you know what i mean..
this might sound crazy to you but i have different beliefs so don't judge.. i have my reasons why i feel this way...
