so I finally decided to quit my job. it wasn't what I wanted anyway.. however, I miss how good I felt serving people and making them feel better even if sometimes I know its not gonna get better.
I've been doing a lot of thinking and i have studied it out on my mind for some months and finally gave in to the idea that i can't live all my life working in a hospital. its too darn STRESSFULL!!! ALL CAPS!! ;-)
i have been offered a job at some resort near the hospital im working and they gave me 2 choices. either i work there in the city or live in an island far from all the city life i got used to. of course i chose the city. but then i was thinking of having memories and experiences most people don't get. i get to live in paradise. LITERALLY. turquoise waters, trekking and hiking trails, sunsets, white sand, the sound of birds and waves waking you up, FRESH AIR (so glad to get rid of all the pollution)..
it has been exactly a month and a half since i started to work and live here. it has not been an easy adjustment.. but now i finally am getting the hang of it.
to be continued... i need to do my laundry! :D lol..
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
Thursday, March 6, 2014
red light. stop and think.
what have i been up to for the past couple of months? idk. i just decided to keep my thoughts to myself. i seem to forgot about my online journal. just afraid to let anyone in to my head. i have been too busy figuring out how i would go about my life. i know i wanted to change my career.
someday we'll talk. but for now i need to sort things out. there were heartaches and there were joys. there were plenty of mistakes to learn from and stories that inspired me. there are people i'd like to thank just for being there even if they didn't know that they made me a more mature woman. a lot of things happened and sometimes i regret why i don't write about it and those ideas and thoughts just slipped away and i forgot about them completely.
i am just so grateful for all the blessings i took for granted. i learned to love myself more and gave myself a pat on the back knowing that my life isn't so bad. i found joy in my solitude. i love my family so so much even if we're not the ideal kind of bunch.. we always try to do our best.. and my family will always come first.
i have been misunderstood by many. at 25 and turning 26 soon, people have been more and more inquisitive about the men i deal with. let me give you a background check.
when i was in elementary and high school, i only had one crush. *lee* he is this chinito who was admired by many. he is 2 years older than me and he is good at basketball and nothing really significant happened during those years.
college crush *levi's* is a friend of my elder sister. he is tall,dark and a handsome hunk. still really good at basketball. he just added me up on fb and i found out he's already married.. lol..
*jag* is a musician. the artist.. a real romantic. he sings me love songs and writes me poetry. he is somewhere looking for someone better. probably he was thinking that i wasn't good enough. he toughened me up.
*wrangler* is a too good to be true kinda thing. a once in a lifetime meeting. he is now engaged. ouch. didn't think that would hurt. ssssshhh...
*dickies* men who are always around but never had the courage to ask me out.
right now the only thing in my head is my career. my heart is in lava mode again. untouchable. it kinda has an autoimmune disease. it doesn't recognize itself and sometimes it ends up hurting itself without really knowing it. i have always been thinking of my growth as a person. my spirituality. my happiness. my weaknesses. my relationship with my god.
its a point in my life wherein the choices i make today will affect me forever. that is why i have been very careful in my choices... i always think about the red light. stop and think... and feel...
someday we'll talk. but for now i need to sort things out. there were heartaches and there were joys. there were plenty of mistakes to learn from and stories that inspired me. there are people i'd like to thank just for being there even if they didn't know that they made me a more mature woman. a lot of things happened and sometimes i regret why i don't write about it and those ideas and thoughts just slipped away and i forgot about them completely.
i am just so grateful for all the blessings i took for granted. i learned to love myself more and gave myself a pat on the back knowing that my life isn't so bad. i found joy in my solitude. i love my family so so much even if we're not the ideal kind of bunch.. we always try to do our best.. and my family will always come first.
i have been misunderstood by many. at 25 and turning 26 soon, people have been more and more inquisitive about the men i deal with. let me give you a background check.
when i was in elementary and high school, i only had one crush. *lee* he is this chinito who was admired by many. he is 2 years older than me and he is good at basketball and nothing really significant happened during those years.
college crush *levi's* is a friend of my elder sister. he is tall,dark and a handsome hunk. still really good at basketball. he just added me up on fb and i found out he's already married.. lol..
*jag* is a musician. the artist.. a real romantic. he sings me love songs and writes me poetry. he is somewhere looking for someone better. probably he was thinking that i wasn't good enough. he toughened me up.
*wrangler* is a too good to be true kinda thing. a once in a lifetime meeting. he is now engaged. ouch. didn't think that would hurt. ssssshhh...
*dickies* men who are always around but never had the courage to ask me out.
right now the only thing in my head is my career. my heart is in lava mode again. untouchable. it kinda has an autoimmune disease. it doesn't recognize itself and sometimes it ends up hurting itself without really knowing it. i have always been thinking of my growth as a person. my spirituality. my happiness. my weaknesses. my relationship with my god.
its a point in my life wherein the choices i make today will affect me forever. that is why i have been very careful in my choices... i always think about the red light. stop and think... and feel...
Friday, January 3, 2014
on melancholy hill
up on melancholy hill
there's a plastic tree
are you here with me?
just looking out on the day
of another dream
well you can't get what you want
but you can get me
so lets set out to sea
'cause you are my medicine
when you're close to me
when you're close to me
so call in the submarines
'round the world we'll go
does anybody know
if we're looking out on the day
of another dream
if you can't get what you want
then you come with me
up on melancholy hill
sits a manatee
just looking out on the day
when you're close to me
when you're close to me
when you're close to me
this is my favorite version of the song
there's a plastic tree
are you here with me?
just looking out on the day
of another dream
well you can't get what you want
but you can get me
so lets set out to sea
'cause you are my medicine
when you're close to me
when you're close to me
so call in the submarines
'round the world we'll go
does anybody know
if we're looking out on the day
of another dream
if you can't get what you want
then you come with me
up on melancholy hill
sits a manatee
just looking out on the day
when you're close to me
when you're close to me
when you're close to me
this is my favorite version of the song
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