the title's quite catchy but actually i wont pour my heart out today.. i just want to update this old blog of mine.. its been 4 months since i last posted an entry. it was all about my trip to hongkong and macau. too bad its not yet finished. im getting lazy these days.. busy with work and too busy enjoying life with my friends.. church life is ok.. so far not so good. im being relaxed. i dont keep up with my old self.. and by that i mean im not like me anymore. i dont always go to church every sunday. way back in college i never miss a sunday service. things changed when i got a job. and i dont do fasting as much as i used to. i usually fast once a month but now i can't remember the last time i fasted. maybe i will have a fresh new start next month. new age, new goals, new outlook, new plans and new......... ill just leave that hanging..
i cant believe myself. i miss writing.. i miss blogging.. i miss updating myself with movies and music.. posting something on twitter or in facebook.. basically i miss cyberspace... oh no! have i moved on to the more serious things in life??? like working and thinking about my future??? oh boy.. im getting mature.. hahaha..
i guess that's how it goes.. life has a pattern.. from being a child who wants to play all the time to becoming a teenager who wants to grow up so quick and think that they know what they're doing to being adults and realizing that we should make wise choices because in the end its our lives that are at stake.. its either we succeed or we fail... i cant talk to you about marriage or parenthood because i haven't reached that level yet but someday i know i will.. and then we get old and start to gain wisdom and realize that life teaches you lessons the hard way... and we just have to accept the mistakes we did and make the best out of what you've made of yourself..
i know im not getting any younger.. and im in that adult stage wherein i have to make wise choices because i know it'll affect my future.. but you see its life itself that makes it hard to make wise decisions.. ugghhh...
so i have a job. now what's next? i know what your thinking. time to start a family of my own.. everytime i think i think about it i always ask myself if im ready for that kind of responsibility.. im afraid. afraid that it wont go the way i planned it. afraid that i wont have the man i wanted to have. someone who would stand strong despite every trial that we would be facing as a couple. afraid that i wont become an exemplary mother... afraid that id have a cheating husband. married people have a lot of problems... i dont know why its like that.. if they got married they should try to make it work.. im talking like this because of experience.. anyway, my family drama is sort of okay right now.. father is back and im so happy and grateful that after 8 long years of praying... finally it was answered..
i dont have enough time to finish this.. its getting late and i have to head back home.. its not safe for a woman to walk alone in the streets at night.. especially here in mactan.. this entry is just to dust off the cobwebs of my blog so forgive me if this read bored you.. tahtah.. ^_^
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