what am i doing wrong with my life? that was a question i had earlier while lying in bed all day feeling sick again. is it just me or am i giving in to the pressure that everyone is unconsciously pushing me to do things I'm un-capable of? im already 25!!! and nothing seems to be going right. i hate my job. i told myself id quit last October but i didn't. my friends and my sisters are the only ones that's keeping me sane for the last couple of months. i hate the fact that i get very emotional on simple things. if you hate me don't worry, you're not alone. i hate myself too. writing this entry with all these stupid hormones in my system is not helping either.
how can i get back on track? i don't even know where im going or what im gonna do to get to the point where im supposed to be. this sucks. im not even feeling Christmas this year and to think that Christmas is my most favorite season of all. Summer only comes second. as i have mentioned before, i love to give gifts. but this year im not feeling it. im not even getting my family presents and this is a first. i bought my parents and i tickets to Malaysia next year but i think i'll take it back. they don't know about it anyways.. i skipped all the parties im invited to. i attended only one and i guess that's enough. i told you, im not feeling it.
im not happy with my life right now. i feel like im just surviving, not living. i wanna live again! like the way i used to.
im sorry if this made you feel down. this is a negative entry. it's not meant to be read by anyone but this is after all everyday thoughts of a woman right?
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