so i met a guy... i forgot how it feels like to have someone admire you for who you are. i have given myself to someone i thought i'd spend the rest of my life with. my heart was close because of him. but things changed. he changed. and i have to move on.
i will blog how we met next time. right now i'm just so happy to have him as a friend. someone i can talk to about anything and not feel like i have to meet someone else's standards. i'm just myself. and he makes it so easy for me to talk to him. at first i was hesitant on conversing with him because i was afraid. afraid to open myself up to some stranger. i guess its what i need. a stranger. someone who doesn't know my past. someone who knows nothing of my former relationship.
i can start all over again. i will start over again.
he made me realize that i can learn to admire other people. that the one i had before isn't the only man in this world. that life gets better in time. that when you pray for something or someone worthy for you then someone up there is listening. if its not Miel then i guess God has someone else in mind.
i hope this is going somewhere. if not then its okay. at least now i know that i can learn to admire and see other people. i have found a friend in him. we have a lot in common. particularly our love for books, movies and adventure!!! and of course the one dream i rarely talk about.. my dream of having my own charity or just being a part of it... we share that same goal of being able to help other people.. changing the world for the better...
my future is not yet clear.. but i like it that way. it makes me wanna wake up in the morning and find out what's in store for me. i'm staying positive. my gloomy days are over. finally after more than two years life is getting better. here comes the sun! shining brightly.. i can feel it.. :)
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