weekend

i was really afraid for this weekend to come because i have a lot to accomplish i feel like im not ready for it..

well first is the tinikling dance.. i haven't danced in a very long time.. i mean being part of a group and present something in front of a crowd.. not since my youth days.. i think.. anyway, it started with a text msg from kent. and i dont know what i was thinking but i just said yes. and yeah i was present for 3 practice sessions.. i was really losing hope because we never got it right even until the very last practice (which is a few minutes before we present)... we dont even have our costumes!!! a day before that i prayed that we'd be able to present something nice even if it was a last minute decision.. and the Lord was so good and he answered my prayers.. :) we never got it right, not even once, during our practices but when we presented it... guess what?... WE GOT IT RIGHT! it was really amazing.. all of us were amazed at how we did.. i guess all of us prayed and a small miracle happened because of our faith.. this is just a simple experience but something worth remembering.. :) we were well applauded and we received a lot of good comments right after our dance presentation.. i never thought id learn something from that experience.. im glad i said yes.. :)

so Sunday came.. and it was the day that i have been very scared of because i have to talk in front of a large crowd.. in case you dont know me let me tell you how shy and crowd sensitive i am.. i have been invited a couple of times to talk in the pulpit and i have declined a couple of times because i have a phobia in talking to a crowd.. even standing in front of crowd makes me feel uncomfortable..

again i dont know why i didnt say no to bro. boyet's text msg telling me that im the speaker for july31st together with lloyd gamba and pres. james fantone.. being with two priesthood holders adds more pressure.. one is an RM and the other one is part of the Stake Presidency.. i feel so inferior.. what do i know? i cant even remember the last time i was a speaker.. yeah.. its that long.. but even with that i just tried my best to study and ponder the topic.. i prayed nonstop every single day that id be able to give at least a decent talk.. praying that i wont stutter and stammer.. coz i usually do that when im scared... losing focus..

and again i was surprised how the Lord blessed me.. i didnt stutter.. i was able to deliver my talk smoothly.. and closed it with a testimony.. and i released a much awaited long 'whew' :) after the sacrament service i was taken aback by the many good feedbacks i got from the members.. someone even asked me if im a return missionary.. i took it as a compliment.. :) i just smiled and said no.. an elder shook my hand and told me how wonderful my talk was.. a single adult woman even said thank you.. i asked her 'why?' she just repeated her words and said 'thank you'..  idk why she said that.. i guess somehow during my talk the Spirit touched her heart.. the Bishop told me that it was a topic which is very hard to simplify.. and told me i did a good job in simplifying it.. and i got more wonderful comments from everyone else.. it felt good.. i never thought i could do that.. later that morning i was quoted several times.. :)

a miracle happened... it was a wonderful experience.. and just like the day before Sunday (with the tinikling dance) it is something i want to remember for the rest of my life.. :)

*the last entry i posted was about how spiritually down i was.. and now im happy to tell you how spiritually uplifted i am.. i hope i can keep this going.. i like this feeling.. :)