Someone just asked me how I celebrated my birthday. I don't feel like answering because i didn't do anything fun. i just had a lot to eat.
March 31st - i just had a great dinner with my sister and mom at MESA - Filipino Moderne
We had ginataang pinakbet, stuffed giant squid and my latest favorite drunken ostrich. everything tasted really good especially the ostrich. well anything that has butter and garlic would really taste great.. it was my first time to try ostrich meat...
April 1st (my actual birthday) - i had dinner again with mom and sister but this time my aunt and uncle were present. we went to Majestic and had a lot of food. i took home the leftovers and jacqueline and i feasted on it the next day.
April 2nd - first day of my IELTS review. had dinner again with sister minus mom.. plus bro-in-law and his mom. had dinner at lighthouse. seafoods galore.. pinaputok na lambay was great... tuna was fresh. and sinigang is one of my all time favorite.
so that's it. i just had some really good food for 3 nights. nothing more. i usually am excited when its my birthday but this time its different. i just don't feel like celebrating. im not even excited about it. i just thanked my Father in heaven for the 24 years I've been given to enjoy life on earth and the many wonderful creations and amazing people around me.. but still this birthday was no fun at all. I usually spend my day at the beach ever since i was 4 years old and a lot of people would celebrate it with me.. this year has been really different... the missing piece is still missing... as i grow older my need for that missing piece grow stronger... i don't know if its my age or the people asking me all about it or my mom being so worried about it... i just wish id find it so that everyone would shut up and i'd feel secure...
someone told me that i would enjoy life when I'm older. i hope its true. i asked myself what have i done for the past 24 years of my existence... i just pondered on it.. i don't wanna write about it.. ponder it for yourself...
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